…is making you fall in love with me, as well. For all the pain, hurt, and loneliness that it has caused you, when you’re the last person that deserves it.

I’m sorry for making you wait for me. For making you put up with such an uncaring, selfish, greedy, unappreciative, and thoughtless person. For all of the painful days I’ve put you through, most days I feel less that the dirt beneath your shoes.

I know..that I’ve used up almost every ounce of forgiveness you have left for me when I don’t deserve a thing at all from you..you don’t know how grateful I am for you allowing me to selfishly cling to you still, when you should have given up on me a long time ago. Just knowing that you’re still there for me at the end of the day, even when I’m ready to give up on life..just..thank you.

I will never regret falling in love with you, no matter how much I may suffer, cry, or feel pain…that is all my own doing and I’m willing to go through that and so much more just to show that you are truly worth it. As much as we may argue and misunderstand each other..we have created even more unforgettable memories and you can never be replaced so easily in my heart.

I’m sorry that lately my exhaustion has overruled my ability to out forth a greater effort towards you..and even though most of the little things go unrecognized.. please don’t think that I’ve given up on you..I will try harder to do much more for you, to make your heart feel more at ease..so please don’t hate me if I may be slower that you expect..

I do love you, my little teddy bear knight,and despite how much I may seemingly push you away..just know it’s not truly intentional..for those are the times when I want you to be closer..I just don’t know how to express myself without hurting you..you are truly more important to me than my own self and the one person I do not ever want to lose in ANY way. The last thing I want is for you to feel hurt or insecure..so I will do my best to prove such to you..

I love you.